Crashbox

When was the last time I posted something here? This month? Today is the first I have had off in the last 21. It is a revelation to actually sit in a coffee shop and know that I don't have to do ANYTHING until tomorrow. Amazing. And I am not going to. (Do anything). I browsed today through some of my old blog posts from the last couple of years and though much of what I wrote was rather silly, I forgot how full of wonder and questions I was. It is not as if I have been dry or dull lately, I just seem to have a harder time than I used to putting words to my thoughts. And of course, for the last month nothing but getting dinner when I am finally off work for the night and enough sleep has really been important enough to think about. Life is so different from everything I was doing such a short time ago. We always speak of how life is ever-changing and emotions are strong and things get too sad, and in a sense all that is true right now...except that I am not sad at all, and the changes that might have hurt so deeply are calmed and smoothed away by love and companionship of the very best of persons. God always takes such good care of me, no matter how selfish or stupid I get. And the future holds only good things to those who look for them.